Even though I was heavy hearted over Mister Memphis, I decided to say yes to an invite to dinner. My heart was not fully in it, but I have been continuing with contacting men on POF and just seeking what may be.
I figured this guy seemed nice, and shouldn't every woman have a Latin lover? I don't know if my life will end up with this individual, but if I don't go on a date to find out, I will never know. I also figure since I want to be actively dating to seek someone to share it with, going out is what I have to do.
I hate dating. Meeting someone new, the awkward dinner conversation and the wondering what they are really like along with all the other questions that run through my head.
Dinner with this individual was nice, he was easy to talk to and was an interesting person. We have discussed going on a second date, even though I am no rush to go out again. I need a little break to let myself unwind from the last two married/involved men I recently finished dealing with in the past few weeks.
Why does this entire process have to be so freaking difficult? I'm not crazy!! I promise! I'm fun!! I don't think I look horrendous and I am being active so it isn't like I weight 250lbs. Ug...this entire process of searching for someone is frustrating. I am ready for the searching to be over so I can start living and sharing my life with someone to see where it may go.
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