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Hello and Goodbye to Nashville

I have been at this cross roads for quite some time.  A lurking suspicion has been dwelling within me stating it may be time to move forward with my life.  While I have worked quite hard over the past few years to make the best of Nashville  and to make it my home, it is not forever.  This has been a struggle for me as the hope and dream of making it here as a photographer before moving on has been the plan.  Now, I am not sure that is the plan.

This all began three months ago when I noticed the property I have wanted to purchase was showing some changes.  There was activity on this land that had not been occurring previously.  A bulldozer was making trails and changes to the land.  A week later I drove past the property again to discover the for sale sign was down.  After seeking answers I found out that yes, the property had new owners.  That began the questions I asked myself if I am even meant to be here in Nashville.  I thought I would own property, build a house, a studio and have a place for my chickens.  Even with this meditative thought, I would find myself wondering if this is what I wanted.  Did I want to invest all that time and money into a place knowing it would not be long term?  Even ten years seemed like a short amount of time to invest that kind of finances into a “home” that I knew would not be forever.

Today I took off and headed to one of my favorite parks here in Davidson County, Bells Bend Park.  It is off Old Hickory Blvd from Ashland City Hwy/Hwy 12.  There is something special about this park, at least there is to me.  There is an energy that I can sense and feel in my spirit and soul.  There have been others who have also spoke about this energy which they have experienced there.  Once a fellow photography friend of mine and I were hanging out and talking after a photo shoot.  He began to open up about his dog who had passed, his wife and other personal things which were bothering him.  This conversation was deep and brought him to tears.  Once we had concluded the conversation he said he didn’t know why he told me all these things.  He then said how he found me to be a good listener and someone he could open up to.  I told him thank you and I also shared with him how I always felt an energy at this park and asked if he could sense it.  He was quiet for a moment and said that he could.  I gave him reassurance towards what he shared with me, explained that is what friends do, we are there for one another.  We also talked about the healing power of nature and the peace we can find by experiencing it.  Due to the energy I sense at this park, I knew it was where I needed to be to sort my thoughts.
I was there the other night, and I thought I had found some clarity.  Then a couple hours later I had everything fog up my conclusion and bring me much confusion.  I felt lost, despair and needed to find some answers.  With no where particular to be, but a lot of things I needed to get done, I took off for the country.  I pulled into the familiar drive at the nature center and put my truck into park.  I headed out onto the trails losing myself in thought and prayer.

During this time I found a peace with the fact it is time for me to go.  I asked God to please let me get my truck fixed and a better place to reside.  The prayer of success for this charity event also was a part of the conversation. 

As I don’t have a timeline for when I will leave or where exactly I will go-I do feel strongly that within the next 3 years I will be somewhere else.  It is time for the wind to pick up this little gypsy and carry her onward to the next chapter of life.  This chapter is basically closed.