LaCresha's Lens Focuses On...page 65...Accept Who You Are

We all go through struggles of figuring out who we are in life.  There was a time I didn't know who I was as a person.  I found myself completely run down and exhausted which lead me to being sick for over six months.  When a friend told me I had no other choice than to go to a doctor I gave in and made an appointment.  They drew blood, ran tests and after much "science" the doctor said I was run down and depressed.  Immediately she wanted to put me on drugs, and I said no.  She said I had to seek some counseling and return in 30 days if I was not better I had no option but to go on anti-depressants.
I found counseling from a Pastor at a local church and met with him once a week for the duration of the next four weeks.  During this time I picked up dance classes and began to work on me.  It was not easy, but it was time to do it.  My friend, who told me to go to the doctor, would invite me over and make me do nothing.  Yep.  Nothing.  Now to most this sounds wonderful, but I am a workaholic who never learned how to relax.  I was only allowed to sit or lay on her couch and watch tv and or flip through a magazine.  This took a lot of effort and was exhausting to me.  Yet, thank God for this friend and her patience as I went through a process to learn how to relax.
30 days went by and I returned to my appointment.  The doctor was surprised I had made progress without medication.  This doctor explained to me how I opened her eyes that drugs are not always the solution.  She further explained that doctors want their patients to get well quickly and drugs are their go to in order to accomplish that goal.
For the next couple of months I continued with the counseling, really got into my dance classes and took time for me.  This consisted of bubble baths in my claw foot bathtub with a glass of wine.  Hiking, exploring, mini road trips, finding a sense of peace within.  It was during this time I began to discover my own sense of style, and let go of things which once interested me but no longer fit.

Have you looked in the mirror or more importantly, taken the time to figure out who you are?  It is difficult to accept who you are if you do not know.  This can be a long process, however, the journey to get yourself to a little self discovery is worth the time and effort.