While I am pursuing my dreams and goals to run my own photography business, and writing career, I work by day as a secretary. I do not like admitting to this, and honestly, it makes me sad. However, I am not one to sit by and not pay my bills, so I work. I work part time for a doctor in Nashville, TN. There are days I really hate this job. There are days which are tolerable. I have stayed as long as I have because of a woman I work with, Theresa. She is superbly awesome. I pretty much love everything about her.
During my time working for this doctor, there have been times when she shuts the office down. When this happens, I do not get paid. As a part time employee, this takes a pretty significant toll. Before and after I go into work I work on my business. I am exhausted, and recently been debating if all this work will ever pay off.
Recently, a new employment opportunity has come along. There has been a rep who has been coming into the office since before I began working there. In October this individual began trying to hire me. Considering I am part time, and basically a "struggling artists/starving artist" I knew I had to pay attention. My truck needs to be fixed, and I am tired of the 'struggle' for my art. I am at a crossroads in my life and I have a lot on my plate which lies before me with big decisions to make. Taking on another medical job is not my ideal, however, if it will help me get ahead, then maybe it is something I need to consider.
Today at work, I got a visit from this rep, and he basically offered me a position which is an hour and a half away. The pay is what I am accustom to making for a wage. While I am concerned with how my truck will handle the commute, and how it will affect my goals, I think I need to take the job.
It is with a heavy heart...
I discussed it over with Chad, and he thinks it could be worth while. I think this individual has a good sense of judgment and I believe he is probably right. I am to send my resume to the rep tonight...then wait and find out what happens.
Sometimes an opportunity comes along and we have to take the time to mull over our decisions when opportunity comes knocking. I don't know where my life is going, and I'm heartbroken over it. I am also frustrated. I often wonder if I will every fully recover from being completely knocked down as I feel I am still slipping and sliding to gain my footing. Not something I am proud of, but I haven't given up just yet. While part of me is exhausted, feels defeated, and I wonder if I have it in me to push onward, to "make it happen". I want to believe I can...I really, really do.
Now, this job opportunity has come along. I will accept the position if it is offered to me, and hope for the best.
I don't know what is yet to come. While I like to let the wind, Universe and God guide me...I hope I am making the right decision to make my life better. Along the way, I hope I still have it within me to accomplish my goals.
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