If you ever listen or read anything by Joel Osteen, you have heard him say, "Dream so big it scares you". What is your dream? Does it make you nervous once in a while? Does it make you want to give up?
If the case is to dream so big it scares you, I am on the right track. As I pursue my hopes, dreams and goals I have fear of failing and having to one day, sit down and realize "I can't do it". The way I feel when I walk into a photo session verses an office is a huge difference for me. One is a dream, one just pays the bills as I pursue that dream.
There are also times I wonder if I have taken on too much. A fitness goal, a writing career I am embracing and getting a photography business up and running, along with a charity event. I have already cut back on quite a bit. Yet, it seems there is too much I am trying to do. Part of me wants to be able to do it all and yet to be a success I need to also be realistic.
While I have gotten to know a certain gentleman online recently, and reviewed the struggle I have endured, my priorities are being evaluated. My heart desires a country home, a more simple life with the opportunity to travel as I live my life living my dreams of a photographer and a writer. How much more should I endure? What is waiting ahead for me? What is God trying to tell me by this constant struggle? Is my character being developed further or am I being pushed into a change?
Interesting enough, this past weekend the doctor I work for made a couple comments to me about my photography and asked what I needed to do to get more booked/paid sessions. I won't deny I was surprised to hear this from her. It was reassuring to work for someone who is aware of my dreams and in her own way supportive to see me succeed.
While I contemplate my next few steps towards my future I push onward. Exhausted, fatigued, emotionally and mentally drained, hoping with each push forward I will find a change in the right direction. There is this draw inside me to have a home with some land in the country. The push to make myself successful continues so I can be in the position to have a simpler lifestyle. The dream to wake up to travel for my photography and have the time to write. Maybe even have a man in my life to wake up to and enjoy our life together. It is hard to say what waits ahead, and I cannot deny there are times I want to give up. Yet, the sadness I would experience every day for the rest of my life is strong enough to keep me trying.
What is your dream? What is your goal? What do you aspire to do in life? Why haven't you gone after it? If you are going after it, do you feel afraid? Is what you are trying to accomplish scare you? Even if you have the fear of failure or uncertainty I encourage you to go after it. The time will pass you by regardless, why not utilize that time to chase your dreams and goals. If at first you don't succeed try, try again. Don't be shy about reevaluating and trying again. Even Chef Gordon Ramsey has admitted that he failed at the first attempt to run a restaurant. He picked himself up, and tried again and now he has over 20 successful restaurants. Face the fear, it can be a healthy part of the process, but don't let it hold you back.
Go and chase that dream, seek that desire which resides in your heart. No one has ever said it will be easy, but the end result when you are living your dream, will be worth it.
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