Fear. It resides within us. Fear stems anger. Fear holds us back.
Just like anyone else, I also experience fear. It is not always the easiest thing to deal with in life, however, we need to find a way to cope with it.
When it comes to running my own business, I find the aspect and the work thrilling. Yet, within me resides a fear that I am taking a big risk and face failure. There is a stronger aspect of fear that runs within me in which I face when it comes to my writing. I am in the process of preparing my very first query. This is a new step which I am taking to inquire about writing for local publications here in Nashville. With a deep curiosity to see if it will get picked up, I am working almost to a point of perfection with this query. Along with the perfection pushing the quality of this piece I am working on, I am embarking on a new adventure, which is scary. I won't deny that I am fully aware of the rejection which lies in the writing world. My steps into this potential career are leery as I am hoping I am strong enough to handle the amount of rejection I am about to face.
Thoughts wondering how much rejection will come my way pass through me frequently. Wonderment of who I will write for and if people will like my articles and books complicate my thoughts. Yet, here I am working on this year long project to at least get my work started consistently and the daily habit of writing in progress.
Last night I pulled up my query and stared at it. This morning I looked at it again and my brain froze. Fear is keeping me from progressing because I feel it is not good enough. It is my first attempt ever to get paid to write an article. I have sent in press releases before and I have gotten them published, but always under someone else's name. There is a concern I am not going to do it correctly or that I won't write it well enough. Maybe I miss the mark that it won't be interesting enough to catch the editors attention. This fear freezes my brain and keeps me from finishing it. I had the intention to send it out this week and before I knew it, it was too late.
Fear is holding me back from just picking up and taking that step to pursue a career as a professional writer. The concern I am not good enough resonates. The fear my that my first query won't be accepted has paralyzed me.
I do not know how to overcome this fear. The only thing I know is I need to push through by diving in and taking the chance. Maybe my first query will be rejected. Maybe I won't be accepted because I don't have the background with published works. Yet, I won't ever have a resume of published pieces if I don't try.
The goal this weekend is to push myself to finish this query. Once it is finished, no matter what I will be sending it out to local publications to take that first step and face my fear.
Sometimes we just have to be like Nike and "just do it". We need to take that first step to see what happens. We need to be open to taking the risk and letting what is meant to be play out. Don't sit on the sidelines and watch your life go by. Whether you take the chance or the risk the days, weeks, months and years are going to pass by. Wouldn't you rather take that step and live your life than sit by and wonder?
Life isn't a dress rehearsal, you don't get second chances. Face that fear, even if with the steps you take you find yourself shaking, it will be worth it. Because once you take the time to simply try you will find out "what could have been". Or you are able to find out it didn't work. If it didn't work, pick yourself up, brush yourself off, reassess and move forward. On to the next! Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed. Take a chance, face that fear and go find out what potentially could be!
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