LaCresha's Lens Focuses On...page 41...Unproductive Day

Sunday ended up being a very unproductive day.  I got up early to be productive, and just could not quite make myself do much of anything.  Lost in thought trying to figure out life.  The realization of the great possibility that I have taken on too much has been lingering.  I need to get things off my plate if I want to live this simple life which rings within me.  I also need to get things off my plate if I want the necessary time to focus on my business.
I wanted to go and explore my favorite park in Davidson County, but decided to change my mind when the light changed and changed lanes.  Sometimes the budget mindedness takes over and it makes me sad I can’t just take off and go explore like I want.
My life is not where I want it and has not been for quite some time.  I’m facing doubt on how to get there.  It makes me sad, and frustrated.  If only I could get some indication I am on the right path.  If I could just see faster progress.
Instead I face the fear of the unknown, the “what if’s” which go through my head.  This upcoming week I am sending out two queries.  They are my very first attempt to become a published and paid writer.  I’m not sure what to expect or where it may lead my writing career, if there even is a potential for a writing career.
As I think of my photography I cannot help but ask myself, ‘why have I chosen (if I have even chosen) two of the most difficult career paths to pursue?’  I want to believe I am tough enough, smart enough to figure it out and make it happen.  Fear is a powerful thing and I am face to face with it right now.  Just trying to figure it all out.