Welcome to the 6th day of 2015. Today was one of the busiest days I have had in quite some time and it lead to a lot of stress. My friends were returning from California and would need to be picked up at the airport by 8:30pm. I kept saying 8 pm to everyone just to make sure nothing got in my way and I ended up being late.
Sunday I discovered my last resort place to stay fell through. I received a text message from the woman I was going to be staying with stating how I could not stay with her and she was sorry. I was baffled and stunned, I was suppose to be moving in Monday, now I had no place to go. Thankfully, my boss was able to help me find something quite affordable in a great neighborhood. I called the woman and she said I could come look at the place on Tuesday. I was hoping for Monday since Tuesday was already going to be stressful.
I was able to get done with work at 5:30 pm so I could take off and get things done in which I unfortunately had put off. I was really enjoying the downtime and getting focuses on my projects which are important to me. Unfortunately, there is only so much time in a day, and when one takes on more than one should, time can easily run out on certain things. Priorities need to be made, and making sure I was all packed up and things put into a new storage unit-was not a priority. I should have gotten a small storage unit at low cost, but I was trying to not spend money I did not need to be spending. Soon as I was done with work panic was setting in, what if their plane got in early, they took a cab and showed up with all my things in their house? It did not happen last year, and yet I panicked about the same thing last year. I was able to load up my truck with what I need immediately, left my instruments in their music room, and a few things in their basement out of the way.
Then it was time for me to run and see the apartment. It was not what I was expecting, about half the size I had been told-but for just me, and cheap rent I will make it work. Soon it was 8pm and I was climbing into my friends van and heading to the airport. I made two rounds to the arrivals area and as I was passing through the second time my friends daughter called me, "We just landed and we are leaving the plane..." she continued to let me know they would call me once they got their things in baggage claim. I headed to the cell phone wait area. It wasn't long before she was calling me and suggested I go to the departing flights to avoid the traffic. Once they were piled in they shared stories about their trip, asked about the dogs and chickens and soon they were home. Hugs were exchanged, keys were returned and I was on my way to drop off photography gear to my friends house.
Before I knew it I was finally at my friends place who was letting me stay with her tonight since it is going to be so cold outside. I was hoping my new landlord would allow me to write a check, have her hold it until I got paid and let me start staying there tonight. That was not the case, and thankfully my awesome friend Miss E was allowing me to stay with her tonight. I grabbed a quick and cheap something at Taco Bell and headed to Miss E's apt. Once there I asked if I should park in the staff parking. She told me if I did I would need to be gone by 8 am. I had already begun to grab my things when I got that text, and the air was cold like the artic. I decided I would rather get up early and move the truck than get back in and move now.
During this entire day I had been texting with a guy I had met on OkCupid. He works at a local hospital as an OR Tech. He and I were having a great conversation, we even talked late on Monday. At one point of the evening tonight he asked if he could call me. I was in the middle of loading my truck and I really could not stop to take a call. I tried to politely explain this to him, and he got offended and said how he would leave me alone. I got his ruffled feathered smoothed down and about an hour later he got weird on me again. Finally, I called him out and asked him, "what is going on with you"? Once again, we moved forward, I was starting to conclude why this dude is single. He gets easily offended and is not very understanding if he cannot get what he wants, when he wants it. Finally, towards the end of my very busy evening, as I was heading to my friends apt he asked for a full body photo. I'm driving, I'm tired, and I don't even know if I have one. I respond letting him know once I get to my friends place I will look to see if I have one. He replied, "nevermind" Then a few second later he replied, "have a good night". Allllrrriiighty. It was maybe 20 minutes later he comments, I enjoyed talking to you. I am now at my friends, I am trying to eat and catch up with her for a bit. I don't respond to him, because he is already being weird and I need to decompress from my day. I get an e-mail from him which stated simply, "delete my number" Ha! With pleasure you freaking weirdo, peace out! I couldn't help but laugh at his behavior, and give great thanks to God for allowing me to confident enough in myself for that to not get to me.
That is the gift of confidence, empowerment, knowing who you are as a person. It has been a long, long road to get me to this place in my life. I am not perfect, I still have much to learn. I still make mistakes and say the wrong things, at the wrong times. However, I am thankful that I have a sense of self, and through the turbulence of 2013 and all of 2014 I have found some strength. Through this strength, I am stronger, so when I am rejected by someone who is not right for me, someone who isn't a good fit even as a friend, I am mature and at peace about the situation.
That right there, is a great gift from God.
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