Today was one of those crazy days. It wasn't until I found myself on 'OkCupid' for way too long and discovered it was almost 11pm when I didn't call my Mom today. This probably would not be a big deal typically, however, today is her birthday. I didn't even text her, and if I had, I would be the worse daughter ever! On my birthday she sent me a text message because she didn't want to wake me, and wanted to make sure I knew she was thinking of me. I am so homesick that seeing a text instead of a call somehow hurt my heart. I really wanted her to call me. So, I kinda got upset with her and cried. She felt bad, but reassured me she was trying to think of me.
Therefore, if I had sent her a text message, I thought it would be rude after how I acted on my birthday-then I got so wrapped up in everything I am trying to do (& the bills I am behind on ) I forgot to call her.
It is starting to get quite cold out, it is suppose to get colder this weekend. It is times like these I wish my chickens had a better hen house. Their initial hen house which I built was much more appropriate for cold weather. I could close up the front door, they had ventilation at the top, but I could layer the top with slabs of straw to help keep the heat in as much as possible. I could layer in the straw so it was 8-12" deep for insulation. I also had bigger nesting boxes for them so two or three hens could pile into one nesting box. Along with all of that, I had cardboard layered on two sides of the hen house and piles of straw bales to help insulate. In the front had three straw bales to help break the wind. The modest hen house was also built inside an old small building that once housed sheep or something. Now, they are in a small hen house with attached coop, no insulation and only one door which shuts. They are tough, and I know they have more than the wild birds which fly around, however, these chickens mean a lot to me and they are my children. I worry about them and want the best for them. I pray they are able to stay warm, happy and healthy.
How I long for the day when my life finally makes sense. When all this bs I have been going through, the struggle, the trials, the tribulations, the challenges are behind me, and what is waiting for me is in front of me. When I can wake up in my own home on my property and go outside to see my chickens. Instead of getting up and driving to my friends house where they are currently residing in their backyard. I don't know how much longer that day waits for me, but each day I think and pray about it. Each day I make an attempt to do something to work towards my future, today includes this blog post, my 365 page book for 2015.
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